Work of Art.

Since I've been a bit of a hobbit of a person not leaving the comfort of my little home I took some advice and tried to take out some of my creative energies on canvas. 

I now know I am horrid with any form of painting but that hasn't stopped me if anything it's kept me going. 

But I seriously sick at this. 

That doesn't mean the colors and stokes upon strokes let my mind wander to photographs. I think if anything this has proved that photography is my nitch and love in life. 

Back to the (eh) paintings I jokingly told my friends I was going to make one of Karma before promptly painting the entire canvas a terqoise. It wasn't until my work today that they saw what I meant.

I spent the afternoon I wasn't shopping spray painting different works for hours listening to annoying music as the dogs ran around. 

I now have my secret pink work in progress, "Karma" & "Why am I calling him four? Or right that's his name" to my collection. 

Shining like stars 'cause we're beautiful

I'm having an impossible time sleeping so here's some more photos from last weeks Neon Lights tour featuring Demi Lovato and opening British band Little Mix, winners of last years  X Factor.

Little Mix- Move



Demi Lovato- Neon Lights Awww memories.  Peace & Love for always- Jessica 

Mime to the tape

Exhausted. I am just exhausted.

My body isn't letting me rest. Wait... let me rephrase that my body won't rest on my mattress because it isn't comfortable so I feel like I'm constantly sleepwalking. It hurts. It's hard to even sit on much less sleep and I've gotten to the point where I am apparently lashing out at myself in my sleep. I have scratches and bruises everywhere and they seem to multiply during the night.

I spend so little time sleeping I've decided to go out and focus on the future- halloween.

Kate and I decided on our two costumes for this years Halloween Party at Disneyland the first ones being very difficult that the second just being fun but still having it be original and 'homemade.' It looks like I'm going to be in some serious sewing in the next couple of months.

The thing about Trick or Treating we have learned is that the shorter the better. Because of a. you get more candy and less apple slices (and two handfuls more then usual when near a young guy) and b. it is difficult to get on the rides if you wear something huge like a gown. So this year we will be Anna & Elsa as well as Rose & Lissa. Both of them either sisters or like sisters and willing to do anything for one another. 

I think it fits perfectly. We will never get the screaming or cheering of "CHERRIOS" as we did that one year but I think costume-wise this will be the best year yet. Now I just need to make them. 

But until then I'm just tiered, feverish and angry over how no one would listen about how awful my room as has been for years and it's only now coming to a head. I'm having trouble controlling my temper and for once I don't feel the guilty about it later on because I'm just over it all. 

I wish we could move. Being in this neighborhood gives me anxiety, when I see certain neighbors I wanted to go and make some aggressive comments and I know I will never feel bad about it. I hate my room, after spending so many years sitting here sick the view just gives me anxiety and no matter how much you repaint or decorate doesn't change how many bad memories you have. 

Now I'm going to go clean out my closet of all the clothes I don't want to wear or have lost too much weight to pull off anymore. Sigh. For once I wish I didn't shop as much as I do. I pretty much just wear my 'fuck off life' outfits now a days which is like 1% of my wardrobe. 

Tiered, Exhausted & Angry- Jessica 

Horror movie beach nights.

Sarah and I spent the evening at the beach out in Malibu. Sadly we where without light for very long so we used as much cell phone light as possible and managed to pull off some impossible shots.

After we got very lost and walked an abandoned street for three miles using all we had- cell phone lights. We failed at stealing public property and warily watched our surroundings because seriously- this is something straight out of the movies.

I ended up screaming for Sam and Dean for help.

Groundhogs day- A Valentines day story

Our belated Valentines day dinner starting with lobster, steak and sprinkles cupcakes. 

Feb. 14th

Instead of spending Valentines day celebrating with the ones you love my mother and I spent it out in Hollywood for a CD signing. Little Mix once again returned to the Grove for a M&G to celebrate the new album Salute.

Because of my wonderful mind I messed up the timing from 11am to 5pm. Not that huge of a time difference. Just enough time to go catch a movie, eat a long lunch, drink some coffee and notice that the giant fountain actually had fish on it and read my book that I'm obsessed with for around three hours. 

I had a wonderful and quick conversation with Leigh-Ann and this time I actually remember meeting them, unlike last time. 

It ended up being a nice way to spend the day and I had a wonderful time with my mother and just a great day in general.